Breakfast of Champions

That’s right people, everything in my life right now is a Hot Tranny Mess, as Christian from Project Runway would say. I really can’t mention specifics on some of the things going on, but I wish I could just make everything better. I’m not even sure what I should do. I get nauseous just thinking about it. Sigh….

In other news, there is nothing crafty to report on. I haven’t found a sewing table/desk yet and I am in DIRE need. I have that Plush Show right around the corner, I have commissions to finish up (and new ones coming in…) as well as a big order from my boss that I haven’t completed. I have plenty of time in the evenings to do all of this, but I cannot do it without a Sewing Table. I am getting desperate. I know this is partially my fault for being picky, but I don’t want to waste my money on something ugly that I will hate. :( I may be forced to take a little trip up to IKEA in Phoenix to get something.

Musn’t dwell, though. I’m thinking of happy thoughts, like Ravi coming to Tucson on Sunday. I’ve only sobbed my eyes out one evening this week thus far, so much better than last week. Must get back to making art, must must must. MUST!

It is so amazingly easy to become depressed and unhappy, especially when you are living alone in a city where you have no real friends. But I am trying hard to be positive, to look at the bright side of life and to find happiness around me. So I took this photograph to remind myself that I am always loved. With no strings attached, with no conditions, with no fear of losing that love because of something I do. It helps, when I am laying in bed at night, to feel the weight and warmth of my dogs against me. I’ve always felt a deep connection with animals my whole life and I do belive that have emotions too. They feel love, and happiness, sadness, fear too.

Thank the stars I have you both, Dingo and Penny. :)

A new show I am going to be in… That’s me in the upper lefthand corner. :)

I haven’t made the plush for this show yet, actually… I really need to get cracking. MOVING SUCKS! I wish I had a freaking sewing table already. Craigslist, here I come! And I won’t stop tonight until I have picked something out. :determination:

Moving is such a bloody pain. And I am terrible at unpacking. And I have no Ravi to help me…. he’s good at putting my stuff away even though it drives me nuts when he does it. I also have no internet, which is totally horrible. Right now I’m at Epic Cafe using their free wi-fi and enjoying a nice glass of Strawberry Lemonade.

Now for the copious amount of photos I have to post today:

My dear little Dingo and Penny cuddling on the bed. We’ve spent the entire weekend laying in bed, watching stuff on the computer and snuggling. We’ve been lazy, depressed bums.

Some of the Tripod Monsters hanging out on a shelf on the blue wall.

My parents drove down for a visit today and to see my new place. There happened to be an Antique Toy Show, so I dragged them along to check it out. It was actually really disappointing because it was mostly toy cars… and lots of newer (80’s and newer) stuff. But I did score this amazing Wind-Up tin bird. I almost bought the exact same bird on ebay then didn’t. The funny thing was I first spotted the same exact one at someone else’s table for $35 and I knew that was an insane price… so I moved on. THEN I spotted this one and the woman was only asking $5 for it. I was pleased.

I’ve been doing lots of swaps lately (I have two more in the works right now!) and this amazing camera pouch was one of them. The amazing Hine traded this one for one of my squids and I gave it to Ravi as a little gift… I know this picture is shite, but we were packing and I knew he was leaving and I wouldn’t have a chance to snap this photo again, so I just had him stand on the patio. Thank you Hine!

And here is what I received from my blind swap with The Needle. Aren’t they adorable? I was sent two because trinlayk thought the first one was lost in the mail!

PHEW! That was a lot…. :D

I’m feeling very down right now. Yesterday, Ravi left Tucson to move back to Seattle (until he gets a job), but for the next month he will be in India where I won’t even really be able to talk to him. Add to that my lack of friends in Tucson (I really don’t know anyone) and the fact that I JUST moved (on thursday!) into a brand new place where I don’t have internet (I’m in the bookmans parking lot right now), I’m rightfully just a little bit depressed.

A few days before we left, my awesome boss Paige (of portraits by paige) did a little photo session of me and Ravi so I would have some nice photos of us together. I’ll be posting more in the coming days. Thanks Paige!

But for now I will be sad, lonely and missing my love. :(